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Wednesday, April 24th, 2002

Final walk-through on “Mock Tudor” is TODAY!! I have butterflies in my stomach about it all.

Alpha last night was sweet. I always panic when it comes to leading worship and last night was no exception. I was sat there with my guitar feeling physically ill with nerves. Someone a while ago told me “it takes a lot of practice and planning to appear spontaneous on the day”. Crazy, huh? It’s true … I planned, prayed and played my way through the songs before last night. I worshipped and let God lead me in flowing to and fro between “Better is one day in your courts” and “I could sing of your love forever”

A great resource: All of the Deleriou5? song lyrics.

Anyhow, last night we prayed for several people to be healed, people new to the faith learned how to listen to God, and everyone walked out incredibly encouraged.

Tuesday, April 23rd, 2002

Growl>

After a day fighting with someone else’s code that’s creating an indecypherable error, under the harsh glare of a neon strip light, my head just wants to explode.

/Growl>

I suppose this is what peple would think of as a spiritual attack though. It’s not like some outright offensive, more a steady slow grinding. It’s a war of attrition trying to leave me in a foul mood and spoil this evening. It’s bad enough when I come home thinking that I’d failed in my role as worship leader, but to have the day leading up to that … it’s not right and I dont want it!

Tonight we’re looking at “Does God Heal Today?” in Alpha and there’s a vulnerable little space in me, an early spring shoot of faith poking out of the ground. We’ve seen lives transformed already this Alpha, and tonight has the potential to be a watershed moment for some folks.

Monday, April 22nd, 2002

Buying “Mock Tudor” is all moving ahead: got the occupancy permit from the municipality now. It all seems so real all of a sudden: the city now have us listed as occupying that address. Between that and the email I received this morning I’m feeling somewhat distracted. (long story, I’ll blog it later once I get permission from the other people involved). Moving into the new house will be sooooo good!

Monday, April 22nd, 2002

Promoguy’s Monday Mission 2.16

1. Ever had a love that you still think of as “the one that got away?” What’s the story there?
Politics might intervene - Im married, so obviously this one didnt get away - but in the past? Yes, I think there were some. The one that really springs to mind is a girl that I’d had a thing for from about age 16 onwards. We got to know each other and I never confessed my romantic feelings, resulting in me being her “safe” male confidant. Boy did that suck! She was telling me all her love-life woes, meanwhile I was interested in her. Anyhow, my 18th birthday party came around and she made a move on me … and I was blind to it. I understood what was going on about 20 minutes after I’d (inadvetently) blown her off. She left the party with someone else, dated him for months after that.

2. What was the last book that you finished reading cover-to-cover?
Doctor Who: Grimm Reality by Kelly Hale & Simon Bucher-Jones.

3. Did you ever get up and walk out of a movie? Which one and why?
We ought to have left “Rollerball”, but sat through the entire thing. What a piece of trash movie that was! I’ve been pretty choosy about the films I go to see, so havent walked out of any of-late.

4. If we were to go out dancing, what song would you want me to ask the DJ to play as I slipped him a $20?
I might finally get my request played: “U R the best thing” by D:Ream (see the Best of V.1 CD). I tried 2 weeks running to get it played on a phone-in show on one of the English radio stations. If not that, something slow and romantic to slowdance to … Wintey Houston’s “I will always love you” would be a good idea.

5. What was the coolest toy you had when you were a kid?
Meccano … beats Lego hands down! One of the most enduring toys I had was my computer, call me a nerd if you like, but it provided endless hours of fun!

6. When was the last time you felt lonely?
Anytime I’ve woken up alone - business trips, weekends away, that sort of thing.

7. Do you have any minor anal-retentive character traits?
Minor? All of mine are major!

Saturday, April 20th, 2002

Saturday Scruples from Fishgirl.org

1. as a famous athlete, you are offered $100 000 to endorse a product you wouldn’t use. do you endorse it?
Pfeh! :-p I’m so far from being a professional athlete it’s not funny. Ask me in another life, or something!

2. a friend who is a strict vegetarian is coming for dinner. you’re feeling proud of your bean stew until you remember that you used a beef stock. do you keep quiet and serve the dish?
Nope, and this situation would never occur anyhow: I am really strict about separating meaty from veggie foods if I know someone has a preference. I want people to feel valued and I want to serve them (even if I dont agree with vegetarianism myself). In this case, the meat eaters would have been subjected to a vegetable base not the other way around!

Strangely enough I had a co-worker from India who was a fairly strict vegetarian. He would occasionally eat chicken or maybe fish. Soon after his arrival here in the USA someone invited him over and fed him veal (a meat that even I wont touch). The girl told him she didnt know what animal it came from, and that she thought it might be a form of chicken! He went on for about 6 months before finding out the truth of the matter - that veal is baby cows! On the one hand it’s sick, and on the other he saw it as funny. The fact that cows are sacred in Hindu tradition caused some religious issues for him though.

3. on an airplane, an old man asks if you will change seats with his wife so they can sit together. you came early to get a window and don’t like his wife’s location. do you move?
I fly with my wife. How does she feel about a couple of old folks sitting next to her rather than her hubby? I rather think that sways the issue for me!

Friday, April 19th, 2002

In an article on Christianity Today, Charles Colson writes

[Some Christians] think we should join the postmodern bandwagon’s emphasis on experience. One pastor told me that 10 years ago he could discuss moral truth with unbelievers, while “today I connect only on grounds of pain and compassion.” But connecting only at the level of feelings is a weak reed for evangelism.

Someone might “feel” right about Christianity?until those feelings change. And even a person who is drawn to Christ existentially has no context in which to understand those beliefs or the church’s moral teachings. Significantly, a recent Barna poll revealed that the most common basis for moral decision-making among Christians is “doing whatever feels right” in a given situation. This is why, sadly, Christians and non-Christians divorce at the same rate

I’m not going to get to his points in order. He says, “This is why, sadly, Christians and non-Christians divorce at the same rate” - which group of Christians is he talking here?

Postmodernism is a recent phenomenon. The oft-mentioned Generation X exemplifies the thought patterns, but postmodern believers are drawn from many age groups. I think it’s true to say modernists tend to be older and postmodernist younger. I contend that the divorce statistics that Colson quotes draw more from the modernist camp than postmodern. I think it’s far too early to start making generalizations about how long marriages last. Postmodernism is not a convenient hook to hang the ills of the church on!

He says, “connecting only at the level of feelings is a weak reed for evangelism” and I agree. Evangelism needs to impact (at least) 4 levels for it to make a deep effect: the intellect, the emotions, the spirit and the will. Individuals will differ as to what proportion of the first three are needed, but at some point they exercise their will in making a commitment to Christ. A debate at the level of pure intellect will be enough - just the facts - to convince some. Others connect emotionally with the message of the gospel. Others, like myself, will experience something of the Holy Spirit and this will ignite a deep hunger for the Lord resulting in conversion.

As much as it’s weak to connect merely at the emotional level, I also think it’s weak to connect purely at the level of the intellect. Modernist thinking says, “present me a logical, intellectual argument and change my mind”. Postmodern thought wants concrete proof that the intellectual argument is real, it’s not enough to think you can argue me into the Kingdom. I dont want to follow a dead god or a hollow (if self-consistent) philosophy.

He says, “a person who is drawn to Christ existentially has no context in which to understand those beliefs or the church’s moral teachings”. Perhaps if you look at this like a Deist or Humanist it might be true, certainly. Chuck is missing the fact that the Holy Spirit, the third member of the Trinity, dwells within individual believers. It takes faith, but I believe that the Spirit of the living God will make the bible come alive to people. He will draw them closer to Jesus and bring glory to God. We’re told that the Spirit convicts the world of sin, thereby instilling the moral virtues that Colson suggests would be lacking. Furthermore, if a person arrives at a place of conviction / understanding on their own, it’s likely to be deeper rooted than if it was hammered in from the outside; if the Spirit of God instills biblical, moral virtue it ought to be lasting.

My basis for faith is that of the reformers: Sola Fide, Sola Gratia, Solo Christo, Sola Scriptura, soli Deo gloria. [Justification by faith only, by grace only, by Christ only, through Scripture only, to the glory of God only]. I believe in a living, powerful and altogether sovereign God who wants us body, mind and spirit. I believe that He will communicate biblical truth by any means necessary to draw us to a point of salvation and onwards into an ever increasing likeness of His son, Jesus.

Friday, April 19th, 2002

The latest version of the Mozilla browser (version 1.0 RC1) is now available. I’ve downloaded and installed it … it’s SWEET. Moving from Netscape 6.0 to Mozilla there seems to have been a definite speed improvement.

And in other news. A “worst case scenario” I joked about with friends a few months ago has come to pass. I cant say much openly about it. All I can say is that my condolences, and prayers, go out to you all! :-/

Friday, April 19th, 2002

My Friday Five for your reading enjoyment:

1. What’s your favorite TV show and why?
Right now, Gene Roddenberry’s Andromeda. The first and second seasons have carried a long running story arc that keeps me coming back for more. Unlike other shows, the crew dont get along and there are some real tensions. Everyone has a good solid reason to be going along with things for now, but, if their individual plans diverge the whole shebang will explode around them. Oh, and Lexa is cute!

2. Who is your favorite television star?
I dont have a single favourite

3. What was your favorite TV show as a child?
Without a doubt, Doctor Who.

4. What show do you think should have been cancelled by now?
Queer as Folk.

5. What new show do you hope escapes the axe this season?
Although t’s not actually run yet, I’m hoping that Witchblade gets all the way through its new (second) season. It’s funny really: they ended the pilot season by resetting the clock so that the show can start from scratch again. Lets hope that wasnt a mistake and that the second season doesnt simply rehash the pilot season, that the ratings are good, and all of the fans who’ve now estblished the way that the “witchblade universe” works wont be messed with — dont change things on us!!

Thursday, April 18th, 2002

I’ve done it 3 days in a row now :

plink, plink
bleep, bleep
whirrrrrrrr
clonck!

Confused?

The lure of the vending machine was just too much for me and I’ve splashed out and bought a Twix 3 days in a row. Forgot the diet! If I’ve gained weight this week (rather than lost or maintained it) I’ll know exactly how!

Thursday, April 18th, 2002

I dont know why - maybe it’s some kind of morbid fascination or psychosis? When I leave work I tune the radio to listen to Hank Hanegraaff even though he manages to take me from quiet and peace loving to a foaming rage in moments. Yes, there are places where the show is entertaining and others where it’s downright fascinating, but he irritates me at the deepest levels.

Last night he had two guests in the studio (Greg Koukl and Scott Klusendorf) and the whole show was a sales pitch for the interactive training resource “Making Abortion Unthinkable: The Art of Pro-life Persuasion”. Hank said that the 5 one-hour sessions boil the pro-life argument down to one simple issue … but never said what that is. He said that you only needed to learn the answer to one simple question and the rest would flow logically from that … but never said what that question is. Come on man, give it up already!

Knowledge is public domain. The bible is free to all, God’s word and instruction manual available to anyone that wants it. We are called, as believers, to build one another up in love.

Ephesians. 4:11-13 (ESV)

And he gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers, to equip the saints for the work of ministry, for building up the body of Christ, until we all attain to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to mature manhood, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ.

According to the bible, the work of training believers needs to continue “until we all attain”, not the few who can afford to pay for it, or the few really clever people.

It bugs me that Hank’s motives clearly werent to train believers - if the interactive resource boils thing down simply, why not tell us? Give a summary and inform us? Tell me, for free, so that I can “make a difference, while there is yet time” (to quote the venerable Hank). The whole show was a sales pitch. He was after money, not the edification of me as a believer. Doesnt it say “the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil”?

Someone once said to not be confused: as helpful as a realtor is in the house buying process, they dont actually have your best interests at heart … their goal is closing the sale and gettnig paid. Now, I know of one realtor who might have our best interests at heart, who does have integrity and honesty to her credit. She’s a strong believer and has been thoroughly excellent as we’ve been buying “mock tudor”. Janis Miller, if you’re reading this, THANK YOU.

Anyhow, I digress. Just as someone warned me about realtors, I have to apply the same logic to Hank. He’s demonstrated time and again that his motives are to make money and keep his show on the air … he just wraps it up in religious language. Someone recently asked “Does America have a ‘truth in advertising’ rule, whereby you’re not allowed to lie about your product or your opponents in your adverts? I have often wondered about a ‘Truth in Worship’ rule” — makes sense doesnt it? Ask these people who lay claim to the truth to BE truthful?